It’s a new year. I can’t believe it. I’m sad to see 2014 go but excited to see what 2015 brings.
2014 was a time of change. Really, it was time when I could either sit in the mendacity of a good life but not be challenged or shake it up and stray from the worn and comfortable path of my life. I chose to shake it up, confront my fears, and start walking on a path I never thought I would walk. You have to love life. You really do.
Sure, I’m uncomfortable because I’m not in complete control. That’s all right. Was I ever in complete control? No, it was the illusion of control. I don’t think we’re ever in complete control of our lives. Not really.
So here I am looking forward to tomorrow. I’m happy, and it’s not the uncomfortable feeling in my stomach that I cannot name . . . I recognize it now. It’s happiness.
Sure, that anxiety still hangs over me like an albatross, and I know that working out and writing will get rid of it. Sure, I’m human and have flaws. With age, I’ve recognized them and learned to live with them.
Welcome, 2015. Let’s live this life one day at a time and live in the present, the now, and just enjoy it. Life is way too short to just walk through it without really living it.